Fatherly Wisdom

Late at night during a pity party a wise man (my dad) once said, "It doesn't matter how it happened, what are you going to do about it tomorrow?"

Profound words those.

I Am Me

There's something that feels so good about being myself. Sometimes I have a hard time not conforming to others opinions and thoughts, and it is imprisoning. This seems so funny, but I recently admitted to liking Hannah Montana, and although it was readily scoffed at, I can now laugh at the show out loud. And it feels good to laugh out loud.

I've had a hard time finding myself for the last while. Especially where I live now. I don't have the opportunity to play sports, I have more demands on my time (although beautiful demands, mostly), the other girls I know all want to do crafts and I don't, etc. Anyway, I noticed that this past year I was putting myself down to make other people feel special or smart or cool. And the result - I have negated myself down to the size of a small undesirable with no ounce of self esteem or the ability to stand up for myself. I've been nearly squished.

Now, don't think that I know exactly how to fix this. It's not like it is going to go away easily, especially after cultivating it for months on months. I suppose I'll have to try and create a habit in the other direction. And it's going to be hard.

Did you know that I can draw? I didn't, at least, I forgot I could. I found a couple of my drawings the other week when I was cleaning out some old files. They were from high school, almost 10 years ago.

And it begins. Finding myself. I went running yesterday, which I don't like, but it makes me feel good to exercise. Step one.

Now on to step two. I'm going to draw a picture.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
-Marianne Williamson

Curious

I {Heart} Mom...Dragon...Owl...Naked Girl...School of Choice...Gang Sign..

Black...White...Silver...White.White....Black..Red....Green...Blue...Black.White...Yellow...

Have you ever wondered why people are willing to tatoo their bodies, something that doesn't go away, something that doesn't look especially good, but most people aren't willing to do anything to their cars/trucks?

I think that people should ditch spicing up their bodies and start working on their cars. I want to see some pink cars out there!

And one day, I'm gonna paint an old bug like a lady bug - it's gonna be awesome!

Have I done any good in the world today?